aloy's ramblings

Fragile Broken Symphony

strings of anxiety and fear, an orchestra of solitude

hello my minions, welcome to my blog.
u better say its GOOD cos it took me 2 million years to figure out how to put my picture in.
everyone around me has a blog, so i guess i cant lose out eh? hehs.
click around and tag me. =))
oh yeah, try to view in IE or else it might get cock up
and even if u DO view me in IE, it might still cock up =)
hehs, anyway get ur minions to read and tag me up too.

IM BACK, again.

Saturday, July 25, 2009/ 2:52 AM

hello

im back again. its hard maintaining a blog.

especially when u're giving ur youth to the nation.

i come home like once a week.

sometime i'll be gone for 2-3 weeks.

anyway, there's guard duty tomorrow.

and im the guard commander. the usual word,

RESPONSIBILITY.

the fucker who came up with guard duties should be shot, revived and shot again.

those things aside,

i found a photo i took last yr with my NDP guys.

all khaki berets, the elites.

im freaking bored. and im like typing random stuffs,

just becos cupcake says i MIA after changing skins. hehs.

well, i'll be back 2 weeks later.

ciao.

IM BACK

Friday, June 05, 2009/ 7:02 AM

Say and write?
i wish i have this in my kiddy days.
would love to say it to that old hag who i have to call "teacher" in my sweet kiddy voice.

anyway, the last post was like 2 years ago.
got busy with stuffs in camp. and i stopped.
now im back, with a new skin.

have to thank this person named nervouswreck,

he or she made this.

looks damn cool. if i had not came across this skin,

i would have closed my IE, turned off my comp and went clubbing.

ok. now for the update with my life.

still running around in bedok camp.

with my rockstars (my section), they're more than a handful of trouble.

but they always brighten up my day. ok maybe except for some days they dont,

they made me see red on those days.

just booked out a few hours ago.

im super tired. walked 12km non-stop with my field pack and stuffs.

and one of my rockstar isnt helping much as he whined throughout the whole journey,

saying he's dying. well, so are the rest of us.

damn, why dont i get fever at such critical timings? everyone seem to get it just before field camps and route marches. when's my turn?

i hope my CO isnt reading this though, he'd kill me.

i feel a dump coming. i'll get back later after my dump and a stick of ciggie or tomorrow if my friends managed to convince me to club.

tata.

Labels: IM BACK

u wrote.

Friday, September 07, 2007/ 3:59 PM

u wrote.

Love is not to forget
but to FORGIVE,
not to see but to UNDERSTAND,
not to hear but to LISTEN,
not to let go but to HOLD ON

i look back and i realised i did nothing of the above.
i see u , but i dun understand u.
i hear u, but i dun listen to wad u have to say.
i let go, when i am supposed to hold on.
and now when u're gone and probably in love with some other guy,
i look at myself in the mirror and i saw an idiot.
i held ur hands so many times.
why didnt i realise that those were the hands i should keep on holding ?
i kiss ur lips so many times.
why didnt i realise those were the lips i want to keep kissing?
i hug u so many times.
why didnt i realise i wasnt supposed to let go?

boring

Tuesday, August 28, 2007/ 10:48 PM

its been ages since i've posted. many things have changed since the last time i've posted. i lost ying, im in the ns now, im a regular army boy now. i lost ying some time back, miss her like crazy. she isnt going to come back to me. that sucks. just passed out from SISPEC as a 3rd sergeant and now being posted to bedok's 1 guards camp. they gave me 1 week of leave. wad the hell am i supposed to do with 1 week of leave ? i no longer have ying to go out with. my brothers are in camp. argh. its gay to go out alone. damn.

My first rant of the month ~

Saturday, September 09, 2006/ 10:31 AM

my day was lousy. couldnt wake up, missed the 11.15 bus and was late for work. as a punishment, i was made " the runner " of the shop and had a terrible time serving food to the customers. a special note to those who read my humble blog and goes to Suki Sushi to dine. if u notice the person who is serving u the food is breathless and looking very restless, especially since u saw him/her dashing in and out of the kitchens wif food and pieces of paper with ur orders written on it. DONT, i repeat and emphasize, DONT ask him/her to take ur order. we're busy enough, get someone else to do it. u wouldnt wan to us get angry and drop ur order of fried tofu in the bin and serve it to u after picking it up. its unhygenic( dont have to correct the word, i know i spelt it wrongly), but we do that sometimes when we're pissed =)). man, i hope my manager doesnt read this. and Ms. Rora, if u do read it, tell me. i'll try and bribe u with ciggs so u dont punish me. anyway, other den being the runner, i was made to do " sai gang", hokkien word for shit jobs. as we are out of the precious ice to serve to u, our precious customers, i was told to get some from our sister shop, K box. unfortunately, their ice machine was spoilt and i had to tow the icebox wif my lovely manager to Sakura across the street to take the ice. and hauling a big blue icebox around in town isnt something cool. so yea, i did that. and finally when work is finished i called my darling girlfriend, she picked up and i told her i'll call her when i reach home and she said she would pick up. but after many calls, she still didnt pick up( im still calling, right now, the fone is redialling her number ). and that pisses me off, after a hard day of work, i just wan to lie on my oversized bed and talk to my other half but she isnt awake! this world just isnt unfair. and i've not seen her in a long time, missing her alot and we're supposed to meet tomorrow. BUT IM BEING TRANSFERED TO TAMPINES TOMMORROW. how to tell her to meet me there if she doesnt pick up my calls? that damn fatty STEVEN( thats our Operation Manager, Mr fat-and-ugly-with-a-disgusting-hairstyle ), its all his fault. well, i hope tommorrow will be better. and love, if u are reading this, please forget him, u know who im talking about. till next time , ciao

Lets all forget abt Jing Jing and concentrate on MY life shall we ?

/ 10:23 AM

i guess when u dont like to talk to people about ur life, u write it somewhere and hope someone sees it. i talk alot, abit too much sometimes. i do talk abt my life, but seldom do i go deep into the topic. i am an average boy who left school becos he thought it was too boring for him. had no choice but to go into NS first before pursuing his interests. i work in a sushi shop, not as famous as Sakae Sushi, but its still the same, a sushi shop. i have a ever nagging mom, and a computer which loves to hang when im typing, a girlfriend whom i give my heart to and a big too big for myself. thats roughly me for u guys now( if anyone is out there reading ). i made a promise to myself to update regularly so yea, i will. for now, ciao.

Sunday, January 22, 2006/ 8:01 AM

2006 is here and everyone hopes to put behind all those bad incidents and move on, well almost everyone. through my friend Hong An i met up wif an old friend, Ghrame. the 3 of us worked at the same factory last year and we got together to have a chat. who would know that we got along so well that we are almost together everyday. we hang out , chill and talk about our favourite "celebrity", krystaller. known to most people as jing jing.
it was also because this particular individual that we got along so well, she was a fantastic actress. man and people think stars like those on hollywood are great, jing jing's acting totally surpasses any one of them. she was Ghrame's ex gal, yes, yes, very unfortunate of him. but hey ! at least we hav some great shows coming up. 3 lawsuits are on the way to jing jing, well happy new year to her. lets start from the every beginning( is there something wrong wif the spelling of beginning ? tell me if there is, im too alzy to check it out on the dictionary),
it was on a wednesday when i went for the interview of the factory job wif An and zhi wu. she was there wif her best friend mei teng, joan and yin fen. zhi wu and i passed the interview along with jing jing and friends. so we went to work that very night. i was attracted to her because she seemed so nice, with those honeyed words and oh-so-innocent eyes. so zhi wu , mei teng , jing jing and i were put into a group to sort out things. and zhi wu and i kept getting great views of jing jing's mountains. accidentally or intentionally shown to us, i do not know.
and so the journey of me going after jing jing began. i remembered her treatment towards me was totally fucked up. i hate to admit it but i was like her dog. i listened and took in everything she told me. she told me how bad life was in her family, and how much she wanted the best for her sister. and because she wanted to get a computer for her sister, she worked hard. and to think i believed those bullshit. well the slave and mistress thing went on for a month. during that month, we were in the limelight of the whole factory. and so she went around telling
people how much she felt sorry for me cos i was not popular in school and how Hong An they all hated me. bullshit, i had tons of friends in school and Hong An and the rest are my good friends. and so i got fed up of being treated like a dog and went wif a girl who liked me. that very night , jing jing cried. so loud and it was so dramatic. and people believed her and came asking me wad did i do. and i found out recently that it was all fake, she dripped medicated oil into her EYES! if i had a video of that crying scene, i would send it in to hollywood. she WOULD
get an Oscar. and so after that jing and i distanced and she went to get close to Ghrame and An. u can read Ghrame's story on his blog, will be up soon and i'll post his blog address here then.